Ever since Spring came around I have been shedding more and more. When I open the fridge or pantry to cook, I look around and pull out items that may have expired or have just been sitting unused for years and tossing it. When I wash my face or put on makeup I end up sorting and tossing things in my medicine cabinet and drawers. When I get dressed, I pull out socks, shirts, dresses that are overworn or are never worn.
Since I have always moved around and often lived out of suitcases when I was touring, I don’t have tons and tons and tons of stuff. But, after almost two years of living in one place that does have space, I have accumulated!
It’s so funny the things we (I) hold onto. I never, ever wear lipstick. I never have but have sometimes attempted it, or at least attempted a more tinted gloss. But, when I have received a FREE lipstick in a gift bag or gift with purchase I have hung onto it. Trying it on once a year and never ever wearing it. Why do I keep it? So all of those have officially been tossed, especially since I am sure they are past their expiration date.
Why do we/I hold onto clothes that we never, ever wear? Likely, because I spent money on it and don’t want to feel the money was wasted? But, how does leaving to sit it in my closet unworn for years give it value? If anything it reminds me that I spent money, when I could just give it away to someone it would flatter, or who needs it. So I have been doing that.
I have been asking myself more and more does this serve me? How does this serve me? Not just about things, food, clothes, items that take up cabinet and closet space but about my choices, routines, and habits.
We get so used our routines and habits but how often do we question them? Whether it be what time we wake up and what our morning before work/school routine is. Or the flow of our weekends. Even the people we socialize with. What we eat on a daily, weekly basis. What we do while eating dinner and between dinner and bed. What we do when we drive to work.
Everything in our lives become routine. My life has become more routine then ever now that I am settled into a home and have a toddler who eats and sleeps on pretty much the same schedule everyday. Her dada, my partner still tours so he is gone a lot and my life falls into routines and habits.
Some of these habits were created when I was super sick and exhausted in the early term of my new pregnancy, when I could barely manage anything. Lazy habits.
Some of these habits were created in the last 18 months with making Zia my number one priority and pushing my business, ideas, and creativity to the side.
Some of these habits were created years ago when I left the touring world to commit to working for myself fully.
So what I am now asking myself throughout the day is:
I have always been someone who thrived on change and was able to always see things many different ways. I have always been someone who had a super strong sense of intuition and was able to tune in and LISTEN (even if it meant making big changes and “scary” choices). I am still that person.
My life is fuller these days with a full of life toddler, a baby growing inside of me, and a partner in life. This can make for lots of amazing distractions and forgetting to ask myself what do I want? How do I want to feel? Is this serving me?
The days, weeks, months pass by so fast! And I love it, but I am ready for new habits (or bringing old habits back). It is so empowering to question my daily habits and ask myself do I want to do this? Does this serve me?
I am guessing we all have some habits and routines that are ready for a spring refresh!
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