Oh Italy, how you nourish me. You have always felt like home, from the first time I can remember visiting. I have been oh, so many places. So many cities, so many countries and you and I were always destined to be.
I made it happen. I returned to you and this time not just for a tour date passing through. I came on my own and I came to live. I came to be a part of you. After being a distant dream in my head for years, to a well yes I could do that if…., to a this is really possible, I really want to do this, I can do Continue reading →
Wow?! Am I really living in Italy right now? Have I really been here for 6 weeks? Is this really my life?
I am currently going through the photos on my hard drive to delete duplicates and excessive shots. My hard drive is fill, fill, filling and slow, slow, slowing down my computer. I have just loaded this weekend’s photos from my handy iphone and I know notice how rarely I look back at my photos. It is if my sole purpose of snapping these days are to share with others and then I forget about them.
Now, I as sort through, I pause and get how amazing it is that I have seen such things, been to such places, that I am living such a life. As, I scroll through the Italian photos, I then greet photos from NYC, from my train trip to South Carolina, from my train trip from LA. Wow, did I really do that?
Crap. I want to do sooo much. I am about to start crying as I type this. Okay, tears are flowing. I can tell this is going to be a let it all out post. My tears do not need to be labeled. They are merely happening, and I always find tears to be the most beautiful thing in the world (of course it wasn’t always like is, read here). Tears symbolize so much. A letting go, an accepting, but mostly feeling. Feeling is happening. How sad that I used to not allow feeling to happen, as if it was wrong. Tears are not wrong. Feeling is not wrong.
I want to do so much. So much that I forget about it. I get an idea and go with it or I make notes for it, and then another and then another. I reach out and ask for how to’s on them all but at the same time I am having a zillion ideas after another. This past week I was reminded of a few (or many) that I had fallen asleep to. Continue reading →
A couple of weeks ago I opened my inbox to find a lovely acknowledgment message. I absolutely love getting emails from all of you. The ones where you spill out things you have never admitted to anyone. The ones that you tell me how much you appreciate what I am doing. The ones where you share things that you make up I will be interested in. I love that I am so connected via the magical interwebs to all of you, wherever you are physically and emotionally.
The email in particular that I am writing about is incredibly inspiring. Brenda (the sender), is incredibly inspiring. Check her out: Continue reading →